Today is moving day! We’ll be busy packing up a moving truck that is likely not going to fit all of our stuff. Guess we’ll figure out what to do with it at the end. I’ll talk to y’all again in a week or so.
Monthly Archives: July 2012
a nonspatial continuum that is measured in terms of events which succeed one another from past through present to future
T-I-M-E: Such a simple word. Just four little letters, that’s all. Sometimes I feel like it truly is a “four-letter-word.” I can remember being young and thinking, “Oh, I can’t wait to turn 13. Then I’ll be a teenager and can do more things.” “When I turn 16, I’m gonna have a cool car and can drive all my friends around.” And then, “I can’t wait to turn 18, so I can get out of this town.” And finally, “I’ll really be considered an adult when I turn 21.” Always rushing, always looking forward to the next milestone. Rarely living in the moment. We try to hurry time up, thinking that when “our time” is finally here, then we’ll really be happy. When I lose weight, when we buy our next home, when we have more money saved – still rushing, always waiting until the right time.
Then there’s those moments, just glimmers in our memories – the second I realized I’d just met the man I would marry; that first kiss as a married couple; staring into the eyes of first, one, then two, and now three beautiful souls that are pieces of my heart.
Once our children were born, I began to realize how fast time passes. I would catch myself regretting lost hours and minutes during the week. “I don’t remember time flying like this before,” I found myself thinking. There’s something that changes in us when we realize how precious each day is.
Suddenly, there are moments that stop you in your tracks. I have had a few too many of these moments since April 9 of this year. “Your Granny is dying.” “Uncle Bryson passed.” And just tonight, “Bear died.”
Bear – the nickname given to my cousin Travis so many years ago. It never stuck with me although everyone else in the family called him that. I call him Travis. So when my sister called and uttered those words, “Bear died” it didn’t hit me at first. Then she said, “Bear — Travis. Died.” I was speechless. It couldn’t be. Travis? MY Travis?
He was always my favorite. We were kindred spirits, Travis and me. I was a tomboy and he refused to treat me like a girl. I respected him for that. He played baseball for many years and when he would bring friends to visit at Granny’s, he’d say, “I told him we’d play ball out in the field and I bet you can out run him.” Oh, he always knew the right things to say. I looked up to him.
Another memory that is stuck in my head is that we used to play this game called STAR for hours. Our grandparents had two concrete walkways stretching out from the side of the house, one from the front porch and one from the back. The rules were simple enough. Each of us would stand on opposite sidewalks and one person would say, “I’m thinking of something…(blue, tall, on wheels – whatever)” and the other person would guess. Once they got the right answer the first person would yell “Star!” and we’d race pass each other and yell “Star!” once again as we reached the other sidewalk. We’d laugh (and sometimes mumble that the other had somehow cheated) and when the game got boring, we’d start trying to trip each other as we ran pass. Trust me, I have a scar on my knee that will always remind me of him.
As we got older, our paths didn’t cross as much as I would have liked. School, jobs, marriage, babies, and moving – all the typical excuses that, at this moment, seem so ridiculous. How can we use these things as excuses? Why wouldn’t we involve the people we love in all these moments in our life?
My heart is broken. I lay here with tears covering the paper, thankful to have my husband’s warm body lying next to me for comfort. Travis was young – just mid-30s – with a wife and two beautiful little boys. I do not yet know all the details and when I do, I will not likely share them on here. I only know that it was sudden and his wife, mother, and two boys were on a flight coming to see him when it happened. His brother and step-father were with him. I can’t imagine the strength his family is going to need to get through these next days and weeks and months. I can only offer them my love and prayers. In my own mind I’m screaming, “WHY him? WHY now?” Even though I know as a Christian that God has a plan, I just don’t understand.
I love you, Travis. You’ll be able to keep Granny company now. I will always remember you as my best buddy with those sparkling eyes full of mischief in those days when time passed so slowly.
This year I am teaching with more influence from the Charlotte Mason-style and I will have the boys do a ‘Book of Mottoes’; writing out one favorite quote or bible verse or phrase from a book each day. I’m beginning to collect and make a list of some for them to use. One resource I came upon was the SCM Forum and I’m also searching out quotes from various presidents and authors. To have the ability of these wordsmiths would be amazing. I am always so touched by one-liners that grab a hold of my heart and mind; that make me think or see things in another light. Words are so important to me. I tend to get wrapped up in the lyrics of songs easily. I buy new CDs (yes, I still purchase actual CDs) and I listen to them over and over again until I’ve memorized every song. When certain moments in time bring a line to my mind, it gets stuck there until I can sing the whole thing through. Unfortunately, for my hubby, I get one line/verse/chorus stuck in my head and will bust out with it full force regardless of where we are. He loves that, don’t let him tell you differently.
I want to copy some quotes on here to keep a record and, hopefully, you’ll add some to the list.
This first one is our “school” motto:
“Education is not the filling of a pail, but the lighting of a fire.” – William Butler Yeats
“Fate rarely calls upon us at a moment of our choosing.” – This one I’ve loved since hearing Optimus Prime say it in Transformers. After researching, because I was sure a former president or some great leader must have said it first, I found out that Obi-wan said it to Aniken in Star Wars. If you know more, please share.
“Do small things with great love.” – Mother Teresa
Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right. – Ephesians 6:1
“Success is going from failure to failure without losing your enthusiasm” – Abraham Lincoln
“It is not strange . . . to mistake change for progress.” – Millard Fillmore
“Do I not destroy my enemies when I make them my friends?” – Abraham Lincoln
“The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.” – Franklin Delano Roosevelt
“Integrity is doing the right thing, even when no one is watching.” – C.S. Lewis
“But courage, child: we are all between the paws of the true Aslan.” – C.S. Lewis, The Last Battle
Well, this is a start. I’m trying to make them meaningful, but not too long in length. I would love to hear what some of your favorite quotes are, even if not directed at children.